I had a long whatsapp conversation with fathin last night.

HabluminAllah wa HabluminAnnas.

Mak aku selalu baca ayat ni..

Buat baik dengan Allah. Buat baik dengan manusia.

Maybe its time untuk aku maafkan dia. 

Oh well, aku dah maafkan dia. 

Aku just nak space untuk aku sendiri.

Aku nak fikir apa yang dah jadi. 

I need a break from any relationship.

I wanna rectify my relationship with Allah first.

Orang support atau tidak. Tak peduli.

Berubah ke arah kebaikan pasti Allah tolong. 

Tapi berubah tu niat mesti kepada Allah ye sayang sekalian

Kbye tu je :)

its almost november

November in few hours.
so it has been a month im in uk.
Hati. sakit lagi tak?
TAK.

Banyak dah berubah. Aku berubah. Mungkin.
Aku lebih suka sendiri. Menyepi. Diam di tepi.

Aku letih dengan dunia.

So, November. Bulan paling aku benci.

life so far

Assalamualaikum everyone! Quite a number of my friend asked me about my life here.

Alhamdulillah everything is good. 

Ada yang gelak sebab aku naik bus. ZZZZZzzzzz..okay lawak la tu ye?

Memang seumur hidup tak pernah aku naik bus. Its a new experience la :P

Ada yang tanya "tak rindu famly ke?" 

Well, of course la rindu. sejak datang uk ni aku jadi clingy sikit dengan family. hari2 viber call..sampai my sis pun naik menyampah.. dulu masa kat taylors. whatsapp pun taknak reply. phone tak jawab. tak return call pulak tu.. HAHAHA :P 

Dulu memang aku tak suka pegang phone. main campak je -___-'' 

Ada jugak yang tanya "boleh adapt tak denga culture?"

Well, tbh rindu Malaysia. Rindu nak study kat Taylors. It is slightly different from our culture la. But you have to learn to adapt. Plus, im taking international business. In the future, i might need to work with people from other country.  So better i learn it now right? 

Also, last sem kat taylors i took HRM. so ada la subject about expatriate and all that..and how to deal with homesick. iNsyallah i'll be fine here! :) 

and pasal food, dont worry. im a good cook! hehe :) mak pun hari2 hantar resepi. 

life here seronok la.. alhamdulillah.. Allah bagi aku kawan kawan yang baik. Housemate pun comel comel :) 

Not everyday you young man turn 21

Happy 21st birthday to Muzzamir Mydin! A guy with a kind heart and soul! May Allah always protect you! My du'ah will always with you <3

Thanks for being such a great friend (eventho we didnt talk much coz im awkward like that) but still..thanks!

few days before his birthday, everyone keep asking each other "u nak beli apa utk muzz?"

seriously, im not good in buying gift.. so I decided to make a video. 

it just popped up in my head to record everyone wishing him happy birthday

Aint that meaningful girrrlll :D 

and all the KY people were in Bristol. his cousin and his brother was in bristol as well

so lets get down to business. 

i carried my camera everyday just in case i bumped into anyone that can wish him

it was so thrilling! especially when we wanna record his cousin and his brother. 

sofia and zati need to stop him from coming downstairs and paan need to whisper to the camera. 

and it was so fun to record everyone! 

then the editing part just give me headache. im still not used to my new laptop. 

the software was being such a pain so i was kinda scared if i cant finish the video :(

so i decided to buy a perfume. while i shopped i kind miss my dad and my brother. 

my dad usually buy the things i picked for him. my brother will be so fussy and end up i will get so annoyed with him -___-

so yeah i chose the gucci perfume coz it smell so good. 

that night no one was home. so i looked up in youtube for some ideas for the birthday video. 

and i saw tutorial for stop motion video. BAM! ideas keep coming in.

so i took a white a4 paper, cut it into 4 pieces..

wrote H. A. P. P. Y . B. I. R. T. H. D. A. Y 

then took a picture of each letter. 

and i tried to make the stop motion video. 

it was good. my god i had so much fun with the video editing. it was so much fun. funfunfun

the stop motion video editing is a new thing to me but i kinda nailed it .. Ehe

ok..i had fun untill..the video that i recorded of everyone was not compatible with the software. 

dayyum. thats so not cool. 

so the next day i decided to go to atiqah's house to get the video done. 

coz it will be more quiet there she got mouse. and the internet connection is better at her place. that is all i need. i need to get the video done by 9pm. 

thank god finally everything is working..until.. 

I totally forgot to put in paan and bobo's video. 

i forgot to transfer it to my laptop..so i need to run back home and took my camera

but i took other things instead -___-

i reached atiqah's house and i realised i forgot my camera so i went back home and took it. 

it was bloody cold and it was raining which is not funny. my god why am i like this :'(

9pm sharp. everything was done. im so proud of myself! weeee :)

the video was amazing. i nearly cried when i watched it. 

everyone looked so sincere in the video! hope you like it muzz! 

that night.. we all pretended that we were tired and sleepy..so at 11.30pm we went home. and quickly get changed. since he wore black at that time, we decided to wear black and red which is is favourite colour! 

to make sure he believed that we went home and wont come back, all of us wished him through whatsapp and i sent him a freaking long essay. hahaha

so 12.15am we went to his house quietly (and i still cant believe how amazing we were coz we changed clothes so quickly)

so yeah he was shocked that we came with cakes! and we let him watch the video. coz everyone keep saying that "let him watch in front of us.we wanna see him cry" LOL

Hope it was a memorable 21st birthday. and it will be a memorable time for all of us. 

well, not everyday you young man turn 21 so enjoy your big day! :)

ok next, we went for dinner at pizza express. it was planned by aini,nadia,maher and mohamad. this is also a funny and creepy-kinda-story. muzz didnt know that we were going. since his house is near the bus stop, he can actually see us from his window. we were so creepy that time.we were hiding and tried to cover our face. HAHAA

with zati, atiqah, claudia

birthday boy :)

with aini

with muz and nadia

people said, when you grow older, eventually you will become wiser. 

when i turned 21 last march, i had a lot of things going inside my mind. 

I looked back at all the pictures on Facebook..Pictures with friends, teachers and family..

how time flies. My parents are getting older..have i been a good daughter to them? did i ever make them sad? how about my brother and sister. have they ever feel proud to have me as their baby sister? Did i ever do anything good to them? 

Thats the first thing that came across my mind. I wanna live and be a better daughter and a good sister to my siblings. 

How about my relationship with Allah? All i ever did was sujood. is that enough? pray 5times a day. is it enough to call someone alim and good? no it isnt. i have a lot more to learn. I wanna be a better muslim. 

OK ENOUGH ABOUT  ME I GUESS

last but not least.

Happy birthday Muzzamir :) 

a day at suspension bidge, bristol UK

Assalamualaikum and hello fellas. Some of my friend asked "apa best kat bristol?"

My answer would me "as long as im there.. best je lah!" 

Ok thats annoying i know.. well, bristol is a nice city. I love the people.

I love the building. I love every road in Bristol. 

Its different from the busy city like London (obviously)

A place that you should go is Suspension Bridge (which is the only attractive place that you can go to)

So last weekend, few (not so few) people came over to Bristol. 

They're all Zati's friend, which is now becomes a familiar faces to me. 

So obviously we brought them to Suspension Bridge (mygodwedonthaveanyotherplacetogo)

So let the picture do the talking.

A picture that explains our relationship. 

 

I love this picture. okay there's nothing great about it coz its just two people attempted to make a heart shape. But still i love it okaaaayy dont judge! 

With Atiqah and Muzzamir :) 

Walking on the bridge! 

From Left: Aima, Atiqah, Amir, Olan, Sarah, Syazwan, Nabil, Zati and Sofia

Lovely people <3

Aint that pweeettyyyyy!

I love this picture. but they dont like it :( oh maybe because im the only one who look good in here ;D

FAMILY <3

what they know and what they dont know

Im still searching for THE ONE. 

Mencari dan mencari. Dah jumpakah aku? 

Dah letih aku mencari. Tetap tak jumpa. 

Kenapa banyak sangat halangan? 

Sebab masa lalu kah? Sebab apa yang terjadi? 

Everyday I remind myself not to think about it anymore. 

Benda dah lepas. It happened adda. Don’t blame yourself. 

Then aku nak blame siapa? It happened because I let It happened.

To be honest im sick and tired of everything. People don’t know me. 

I wish they stop calling me a good girl. Betapa malunya aku bila orang cakap aku baik.

Mak, abah. Maaf. Mungkin tak terungkap kata maaf tu di bibir tapi setiap hari aku doa mak abah maafkan aku.

Betapa khilafnya aku kat dunia ni.

Now im in UK. Aku nak tutup hati aku rapat-rapat. Aku nak teruskan perjalanan aku. 

Mencari yang satu. Baiki apa yang patut.

Banyak hutang aku dengan dia. Takut tak diterima sujud tapi malu juga nak meminta minta.

Hidup ni satu pencarian. Teruskan perjalanan. Jangan berhenti mencari. 

Aku masih jahil. Masih tak tahu agama. Tapi aku harap message aku sampai pada yang mahu mencari.

skype sesh

Ya Allah..rindu nyaa semua orannggg.. 

OK NOW i wanna know who invented skype. 

You're super genius *hats off*

Well.. actually I viber call with my mom and sis like almost everyday..

But skype is different coz you can actually see them. AHAHA

Skype with baby Afiqah Nurina. She's 2months old.. ohmygaadddd so comeeelll <3

Skype sesh with mom and bro. OK sumpah annoyed with my brother. bz 24hours..erghh -_-

Skype sesh with my lovely ladies, QIs and Mai..all the way from Australia. RINDNYAAAA

Skype sesh with sis, mak and abah masa malam raya. ok almost nangis jugak la.. but watlek wat peace yo! 

btw abang still tido. seeeeeee.. thats why im so annoyed with him ;( bz memanjang sampai nak talk with me pun tak sempat

life in uk

assalamualaikum everyone! Ya Allah..lama nya taak update blog..
i've been so busy so yeah..sorry for the late updates!
So..im in uk now..alhamdulillah.. everything is fine so far..
And this is the first time i celebrate raya haji without my family
so its kinda sad but i thank god for 'sending' these people :)
life has been so wonderful.
so now let the picture do the talking.

New family: sofia, muzz, atiqah, me and zati

Friends since Taylors. Hanisah and Aima

Housemate a.k.a forever-annoying-adik - sofia and zati

This picture was taken a night before raya. We baked chocolate cake and made cekodok pisang. Also, nasi goreng paste. It was a beautiful memory :) 

Bath :)

At Atiqah's. Potluck event :) 

Claudia from Portugal. Prett gal

New people. New faces. New friends :) 

Aini and Nadia

ok and this thing is called ligretto. its a card game originated from german. and yes, we're so damn addicted to this game. 

and last but not least..ohhh! thats me!! HAHAHAH! 

I was with aima and we wanted to go to Islamic Society Event.. Aima wore baju kurung and I wore jubah. SO we camwhore along the way to the hall. OK sumpah sejuk but i dont care. i've been waiting for the right time to wear jubah weh!!